that no expression

2008-06-03T22:45:00.002+08:00

I've moved ! Relink pleaseeeee, thanks! :D

http://midnightsketches.wordpress.com/

2008-06-02T19:37:00.004+08:00

Starbucks is playing Norah Jones again.

Green Tea Frappe makes me feel like the happiest person on earth, just with green tea frappe and I ask for nothing more.

Most of the time, I turn to thomson starbucks for comfort when I needed some. Happy or sad, high or low. I'll always make an effort to visit this place whenever I'm free, where I spent most of my time besides school and home, with friends or alone.

Everyone has a place where they can find their own quiet time, well I guess this is mine then
:)

I'm enjoying the peace I'm having right now, studying for whatever I need to buck up on.
Haha

2008-06-01T18:58:00.004+08:00

GOSH GOSH PREORDERS AVAILABLE FOR XIAO JING TENG'S ALBUM STARTING FROM 2 JUNE!!!! WHICH IS TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY FOR SO LONG.

I saw the new styles the hairstylist created for him, I still prefer the ones back then when he had a very simple hairstyle that suits his age, no particular messing up of hair with curls.

But that's not the point, what matters most is still the talent of him having great vocals and being able to play the piano so so well I could have melted right on the spot !

Okay, this is just an idol craze for me. I've been going crazy since last year. Haha
This is quite a major craze compared to the past. ooooo I totally love it when he do covers on Mr Big and Bon jovi.
I was insane when I went crazy over this anime character from Shaman King called Tao Ren when I was in sec 2.

So I think this is pretty normal. What's more, Pris can even go crazy over powerpuff girls.
Well, anpanman is still my love, since ages ago I'm sure <3

Anyway I'm not sure if we can preorder in singapore, if not I'll just wait for the actual release date :D

Heeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-06-01T03:05:00.003+08:00

It's 3.06am in the morning, I couldn't sleep not because I'm doing something productive but I'm just stoning and I don't feel tired at all :/

Managed to revise one chapter of IO Chem, but I bet it will run out of my brain soon.

Royston always ask me :
What have you done today?

When I thought about it, I did nothing that productive almost everyday.
Okay maybe today was the start of doing something productive which was the one chapter of IO Chem.

And this idiot ah, instead of talking nicely we usually communicate by arguing since the day we know each other.

On msn.

Roy: I know my surname is zhu but no need mock right

Roy: Okay la I know you joking ah dont emo

Me: Okay okay -.- Who want to emo at you

Roy: Ya, who want to emo at a guy that gives people laughter

Me: HAHA okay if you insist

Roy: I creating fun only you nerdddddddd

Me: asshole

Roy: Ya I got. You don't have? How to shit? From mouth ah ?

Me: You got one extra one on your mouth

Roy: oh. no wonder i dont have problems shitting. I have two holes. One back one front

Me: Ya come out from your mouth also. everything disgusting

Me: Haha, go sleep please.

Roy: kkkkk. Since you beg me, I very da liang one. I go sleep. You can stand up, no need kneel so long one.

Me: You think too much

We had this same kind of communication everyday. In school and on msn.
It can just stay like that man, I'm enjoying it. Lol

We're still good friends lah. haha :D

It felt good having the reports and projects submitted which means it's kinda relax now, BUT it's only half the load gone.
There's still bio report, PBL and IDEA project to be submitted after the holiday.

2008-05-30T20:28:00.005+08:00

IDEA class was canceled so we officially ended school at 1pm! This is the best Friday ever :)

Holidays are here, voluntary work are here, mid sem test gonna be here, gonna keep working hard because I want the diploma plus to be there at the end of first year!

I went Kbox today, with Grace Royston Jannifer Eddie & Benny !
The six of us went high with certain songs and I got them all recorded down :D

It's pretty dark so can't really see.

You know, Eddie can sing really well.

Eddie : Mary Jane
Me: Can stop calling me mary jane
Eddie: I'm spiderman.

?! Retarded -.-

The high ones

Hahahaha.

There's makeup lesson for IO Chem on Monday! :( mannnnnnnnnn, holiday first week first day :(

I can't wait to meet up with the girls.
Pris, tell me the date soon okay! :D

My mum asked me to stay home tomorrow, there's no way I can go out or sneak out.
Lol, it came in useful cause I needed rest, so I agreed to it immediately when she said that.

HOLIDAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !

2008-05-29T18:16:00.006+08:00

Have you ever...

felt a twinge of pain you're never able to overcome for so long
felt regretful for not treasuring something when you had the opportunity to
felt a sense of guilt and blame yourself
felt an emotional pang and your mind was in a total blank
gotten into a situation of self denial you don't know yet you know what you wanted
felt sorry for not being able to express yourself
felt that hopes and reality will never come across each other
listened to a song and had it stuck in your mind because it felt so relating
felt that you've let go yet you never really had the closure
felt that the look on your face already gave you away
tried but couldn't find what you wanted
tried but couldn't search for an answer within yourself
thought of running away with pride
tried pulling yourself back to reality when your mind starts drifting away
lied and said that it's okay

felt this way but don't know why

Hahaha, maybe my monthly routine is coming, thats why. OH WELL!
I'm still learning to let go and move on lah, tsk. I'm a slow learner, I'm slowwwwww.
Lol.

But the thing is, I'm no longer feel as weak as before. That's the best takeaway after all the blows that hit me as though my teenage life was having a crisis.

I went back KCP today for my O level cert! Then the three of us had bubble tea at the playground, which brought back memories of the times when I was still in sec sch.

This was what happened during the last lesson of the day.

During IO Chem, I had this stupid idea.

Me: Eh you try. When you laugh that time instead of HA-HA-HA, you do HEE-HEE-HEE

Peirong: HEE-HEE-HEE

The effect was hilarious, it was really retarded, TRY IT!

HEE-HEE-HEE!

And I fell in love with the 7 o clock show! It's very funny, hee-hee-hee.

2008-05-28T17:34:00.003+08:00

I WANNA WATCH MADE OF HONOR!!!!!!!

Too caught up with school I guess the only time that I actually enjoyed myself was the airport trip with peirong. Watching planes can be a very emotional thing to do, but everything felt brand new after that :)

I want to watch Made of Honor, I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch I want to watch
MADE OF HONOR.

School was alright today. Nothing much, nothing less.
I had a DJ Max battle with Jinyong, hahaha.

As much as I'm thankful for this to be the last week before the break comes, I'm dreading lessons because they are going way too fast, and we're using the break to study for mid sem test as well.
Honestly, I'm very very very scared for Microbiology, I am really really dead.

:'(

Royston told me about this song, and I realised it's specially put together for the Sichuan earthquake. This song is really very.....sad. Especially with the photos of the disaster.

I think I'm going back to KCP for my O level cert tomorrow, but I think I will feel very lazy, I think.

2008-05-27T21:43:00.007+08:00

My body clock is behaving in a weird manner recently. I don't know how to explain but when I'm tired I get much higher than usual. The more tired, the more high.
We had Excel test, it was alright I guess. But I get the feeling I'm not gonna do well lah.

I have some baby photos in my folder and I've decided to post them up!
These were the ones which made me laughed like mad and kept thinking what was going through my mind then.

First, let's start with this.

Jinyong made a smart comment : So young you already have cock eye, something must be so wrong.
-.-

I spent most of the time with my dear cousin junjie and Ah Ma,

And slowly found a new hobby : Bullying

(I bet this one was taken when someone said : Ah okay okay sayang mei mei sayang )

And did you notice, he was actually pointing middle finger in the first picture. Hahaha.

Celebrated my 1st birthday, looked just like a boy again.

Followed by an unhappy 2nd birthday, haha.

This was my first chinese new year.

Freaked out when someone touched me.

My Godma.

Had wedding dinner and burnt my tongue

AHA. And met an ang moh hottie.

Nevertheless, there was this one photo which I love THE MOST.

TADAHHHHHH

Remember those kind of glasses which was called fashion during our days at that age?
Those that you can flip open the outer layer.
And and. I wasn't bald okay, just that my fringe was tied up like an antenna.
Reminds me of the CJ7 now, chang jiang qi hao.

My cousin's two years older. And what was going through her mind then, seriously!

Anyway, I bought this yesterday. I'm really really happy! There's very few places in singapore with Anpanman misc, :)

2008-05-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

The mid sem test schedule is out. Please take note people!

Date: Monday, 23 June
Time: 1.30pm
Module: MS2126 Engineering Maths 1.
Venue: T4A51

Topics tested: Chapters 1 to 6

Date: Tuesday, 24 June
Time: 10.30am
Module: CP6002 Microbiology
Venue: T4A55

Topics tested: I don't know, haha.

Date: Wednesday, 25 June
Time: 8.30am
Module: CP4006 Inorganic & Organic Chemistry
Venue: T4A54

Date: Thursday, 26 June
Time: 1.30pm
Module: CP5035 Chemical Process Principles B
Venue: T1A46

Topics tested: Chapter 1(a), 1(b)

Good luck to everyone for CPPB, this module is irritating, but just...study hard :D

I am so gonna flunk my report writing test I tell you.

I met xiangjun at night for dinner. While we were walking, she suddenly dragged me to look at the rings at Couple Lab. Goodness me, made me feel like a les ! HAHA, can you imagine cause she has the short hair.

Anyway, that's not the point. We went to the mini pasar malam at the central area near Jubilee and there's this tikam tikam game stall from Taiwan called Happy Ball.
We paid 3 dollars for a bucket of 70 balls and we just kept aiming at the slots! We played as though we were deprived of childhood, like there's no tomorrow.
But this is really one game that made us forget about the stress we have, until we stopped and I realised I have excel test going on tomorrow. Haha

Anyone wanna go play ? Faster go try before the pasar malam ends!

Man... I had only 3 hours of sleep last night because I touched up on my report for a pretty long time.

Just when I thought I can sleep till 11 plus so I could reach school exactly at 1pm, there's this message passing around that says Group A has to be in school for case study project at 8.30am.

I'm in group A -.-

Ahhhhhhh.

2008-05-26T01:17:00.003+08:00

CHEER FOR ME, I'VE COMPLETED MY REPORT ON ASPIRIN !!!

I thought it would be impossible as time approached midnight, BUT I DID IT.
I never know it felt this good to have a burden off my shoulders, in this case the report.
Phew, finally. I've been struggling with it not knowing what exactly I should do. Great, now it's good for submission tomorrow!

Tomorrow will be the start of the bio report, haha.

I was watching the charity show for the Sichuan Earthquake on channel 8.
It's really depressing to watch them cry, with the several stories that made me cry also. Lol.

There was this guy who endured 79 hours all the way despite the heavy load pressing him down against the ground. He was conscious then, and even spoke to him wife on the phone. After 6 hours trying to rescue him, he was finally out and all he said was thanks to the rescuers. The sad thing was, he passed away when he was out on his way to the hospital. No one could make him open his eyes again... He endured 79 hours and it took just a minute for his will to tell him to give up.

And this mother found shielding her baby even though she was at her last breath, this was really really depressing yet touching. My mum said it's a natural response of any mother out there if they were in her situation. This particular mum left a message in her phone which was found in her baby's blanket.
It says : Dear Baby, if you get to see this, always remember that I love you.
something like this in chinese.
And the baby is still alive right now.

And a young boy who believed the leather couch at home was strong enough to protect his mother from getting affected. But this child didn't know how the fall of the building can crush anything to death. He stood there, looked at how others tried to find his mother out of the mess.
When found, what was left was nothing but the corpse.

The children were left homeless.
And do you know... areas near Sichuan experienced another earthquake at 4.21pm today.
1 dead but most injured. Look what natural disasters have done for just a short period of 3 weeks.
First the cyclone at Myanmar, next the Sichuan Earthquake.

Hmmm, some charity programmes might seem too fake to be true. But we all know this is real.
Even my mum, someone who doesn't support any charity shows, tuned in to this one in particular.

Haha, to terrance's friend who is at Sichuan volunteering your help right now, I doubt you will read this but I hope you're doing fine right now. I feel that you're someone so great, you put others in front of you, you think about them first before getting to yourself. Not anyone can be like you, to fly there without complaints.
:D

Oh no, I got report writing test tomorrow! And it's hand written ?!
Oh man, my brain's not good at coming up with phrases to replace existing ones at such a short time. Argh, I'm so not gonna bring laptop to school tomorrow.

As much as I don't want to face the test tomorrow, I have to go sleep now to welcome tomorrow when I wake up at 5.30am.

Nightttttttttttttttttttttttt.

2008-05-24T00:08:00.008+08:00

I was really really really tired by the end of the day.

School was tiring whenever it comes to Fridays, my eyes were closing while we're using our laptop for IDEA. I was lying against Meixin's chair and it felt so comfortable even though it's hard and cold.

So I went to Grandma's place, picked up the two boys, and brought them to j8 for dinner and then to the library. I can totally conclude it isn't easy looking after children, really.
No matter how hard they tried to be good, it isn't easy.
The energy to be able to answer their questions which came almost every minute really tested my energy level after such a long day in school.
And boys are generally much much more active than girls.

When we returned back to Grandma's place, I slept on the ground and 2 hours gone just like that. So right now, I've already worked halfway through the aspirin report and I decided to stop right at this moment cause I needed sleep so badly after having only a total of 7 hours of sleep for the past 2 days.
And I have to wake up early tomorrow at 5am and head to Malaysia, only to be back at night.

:( My eyes are getting sore and tired.

Over the past few days, I kept looking at this photo of myself when I was young.
I looked really like a baby boy goodness me, but quite handsome lah, yan dao.
Haha I wonder who did my hair, just like guy's hairstyle.

Things may change, but there are some that stays the same.
They may turn out to be something comforting... something that sounds so fine that you want to keep forever
We all need something like this once in a while, but be sure to get back to reality once you're done

2008-05-22T19:45:00.008+08:00

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

I'm really amazed at how silly conversations actually help to remove everything out of my mind.
Haha, let me explain.

I went to school with a mood so down with what happened last night, followed by a terrible terrible headache. I thought the day would suck, even thought of skipping practical.
Whatever it is, I was really really down.

Then the first silly conversation came from Shiela.

Shiela: Hey Jayne! Where's Tarzan!

Me: Tarzan die already :(

shiela: hai yo no wonder you look so sad. Don't sad k, i help you plan the funeral.

Me: Nah, I want to target George already.

shiela: Ya also can la, george lives in the jungle also.

Then when we were attending IOC lecture, I kept waking Yihong up when he fell asleep.
He was sitting in front of me and when his head was down, I started hitting him with a ruler long enough to reach from my hand to his shoulder.
And the hit wasn't a light one, haha.
Then he start talking to me about soccer.

Me: Eh, ask you ah. Why you all guys love soccer so much ?

Yihong: Why you all girls love shopping so much ?

That shut me up, lol. Okay...same reason, different hobby.

During practical, peirong and I were behaving like idiots, pulling eyes apart and make the spectacles stuck there and do the cock eyes.
I love that man.
And Royston is one big idiot that really makes everyone laugh the moment he starts speaking.

In the morning,
the delivery man brought the stocks in to Macdonalds and we happened to walk past.
We saw the hotcakes in cartons.

Man: Hello!

Roy: I hello back got hotcakes ?

-.-

in the afternoon, he kept doing the xiao hei thing until we couldn't take it, peirong's laughter was full blown.

I really enjoyed my day in school, with the same people, same jokes that can be repeated over and over again and it all just seemed so retarded all over again.
The reason why I like school.

But! After feeling settled within myself, the work load increases again.
There's bio report to do and we've not even finish the one on aspirin.
MAN! I'LL GET MY BRAIN WORKING.
I suck at multi tasking but I'll try.

Now I know how did SP's school of chemical life sciences got its reputation, it just keep drilling and drilling and drilling the facts in non stop.
Lol.

Thank you girls (: I just don't want you girls to spend the night on me instead of your own reports. I'm really okay now, you saw me like an idiot in school today, haha.
There's a lot of people I felt so bad to, I don't know how to express myself, lol.

Olefins, I hope you're feeling okay now! You managed to put your thoughts aside today and had fun, you can do it too for as long as you want! You're olefins, you can do it :)

I'm bringing my two boys to study with me at the library tomorrow.

Finally I went to KCB band blog after being so caught up with my own emotions and work for so long, and the first thing that came to my mind was,

'I'm thankful for Ms Chia, for her to be with the band. '

:)

Actually it was ever since Founder's Day, haha.

2008-05-21T20:14:00.012+08:00

' The intermolecular forces may have been broken, but not the intramolecular forces, it is still there. '
I got to know this from someone, thought about it, and yea it makes sense.
Haha.

After every overwhelming thoughts/emotions comes a series of good events.

Met up with Min Er after school, we went to AWWA Elderly Services Centre and signed up as volunteers! Yay!
We could have just walked away because the door was locked and there seemed to be no one in the office, but we pressed the bell and asked around.
Julia, the person in charge, was so friendly and nice :)
She brought us around, so we met Chess King, Mr Eddie, Mdm Kim is mr eddie's wife, and a group of grandmothers who was enjoying the Kbox session.

Joining services like this kind of made us understand more about the elders. Some are there not because they are homeless, but because they enjoyed the company over there and kept going for more. Some even had their rooms upstairs.

Mr Eddie and his wife are soooo cute, really.
They brought a cat back home and played with it, lol .

After that I met Pris, Jacq, Hs and Marcus and accompanied them for dinner.
Okay, like finally. I finally met pris after so long! Oh man missed everyone so much :(
Just that I had gas/wind in my stomach, I felt so bloated since afternoon.

No appetite for anything except for my grandma's xian dan miracle pill which miraculously eased my pain a little.
And I get to see baby again. She's getting prettier, eyes bigger, more chubby!

I got my grade for my first report.
It's a 72% so it's a B I think, all I know is 3 more marks to a B+ .
Haha but I'm contented with this for now, slowly lah.
:)

Next up, Friday will be study night for the two boys.
I'm bringing my two nephews to the library, I'm gonna be their nanny for that night.

/

You know, I've got a lot to do for school but I am just so lost. Don't even know if it's right to complain or not, lol. I know if I can't take this right now, I can't face greater stress in future.
So I'm trying to take it now, haha.

I laid them all out on the desk and just stared at them.
Reports and projects and reports and projects, worst still, my own revision to catch up.
Just that I can't help but to automatically shut off the brain system and everything goes blank when I want to really concentrate.
Tsk.

I keep saying the five words "I'll be there for you" to many people, but will there be anyone to say that to me. haha
Maybe because I had the i-am-sad-today-but-i-will-be-fine-tomorrow-dont-worry face.
Ya maybe, haha.

My dear girl, I understand what you're going through right now. You just have to stay strong and keep things going, things will soon turn out better (:
Just to assure you, I'll always always be there for you, always. I hope the 9 o clock show will always be there to make you smile :)

I wouldn't be coming online so often for the time being unless I have a project to discuss with my group members. If anything, call/text me!
Or leave offline messages on msn!

Haha I'm thankful for this blog!

Goodnight! I remembered my aspirin report, haha.

It has been quite a while since I last felt this way

2008-05-21T01:34:00.003+08:00

I was at the airport with Peirong after school, and things just went out of control at the viewing mall.
I'm glad for this trip.
I hope you're feeling way much better now, cause I do feel fine now :D
Watch planes fly.
I know I feel safe sitting there watching the planes with someone close.

Thanks for the trip, thanks for the call till 1am.

I guess the long trip from airport to home was a journey good enough to reflect about what has happened in my life since last year, till today.

I think the only thing that makes peirong laugh is my baby photos, I'll try to scan it and post it up if possible.

My group members are the best, I felt so fortunate to have them.
And I tell you boy, don't you dare mess with one of my group members, boss him around and I'll shoot you back.

2008-05-19T22:42:00.002+08:00

Chris Daughtry - Home

I'm staring out into the night
Trying to hide the pain
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain

I'm going home
Back to the place where I belong
And where your love has always been enough for me
I'm not running from
No, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
Well I'm going home

The miles are getting longer, it seems
The closer I get to you
I've not always been the best man or friend for you
But your love remains true
And I don't know why
You always seem to give me another try

So I'm going home
Back to the place where I belong
And where your love has always been enough for me
I'm not running from
No, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old

Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all
And then some you don't want
Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all, yeah

Oh, well I'm going home
Back to the place where I belong
And where your love has always been enough for me
I'm not running from
No, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
I said these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
I'm going home.

2008-05-19T14:20:00.003+08:00

I'm watching Tom & Jerry on cartoon network !
Oh man, it was my must-watch cartoon since young, I still love it now.

Yesterday was a terrible one, but I'm leaving it behind because it's interrupting my work.
So I'm really okay now.
Thanks Jan, thanks for your concern :D

I'm listening to a lot of Mr Big, Bon Jovi and Hinder recently. Guess it's just the way they bring their emotions to the audience.
Oh I'm also listening to a lot more chinese emo songs now all because of the jukebox royston chee who kept singing since the day we became a clique.

All the music and shows made me happier this way :)
So don't throw me any family issues anymore, I can take it but there's always a limit.

Lol, don't you know when you control your negative emotions by being happy, you generally become happy at the end.
That always happen to me! Haha

I'm so looking forward to june! Please don't postpone the album to july or any longer!
(:

Alright,
My aspirin report's not even halfway done. I'm really lost.
Hahah, gonna go work on it now.

2008-05-18T02:38:00.002+08:00

I hate to see my friends get so lost and frustrated with their problems and I couldn't do anything to help, the least I can do is to be there no matter what, and I will.

P, X, M, you three are the few of the strongest girls I've ever met, so let this point shine.
I know the three of you read my blog and I just to let you know that I'm always here, always here.
Will cry with you, will walk this together with you.

Cheers girls.

Chris Daughtry is getting me back to memories, haha.
I listened to Home and I felt so weak inside, suddenly felt all the aches I've never did.
Only aches, serious, lol.
Cause I promised to try not to cry over anything anymore.
Hahaha.

I want to sleep right now! But then! I want to watch the singing competition on repeat!
It's starting now, (:

Sometimes we get angry because we truly care

2008-05-18T00:28:00.002+08:00

Natural disasters took away smiles from million people, those who are affected.
I was watching Channel 50 and they reported the situation and also earthquakes that happened in the past, wah it was really depressing you know.

Group members came to my place to do project and we were really way too distracted to finish even the last question!
But we completed it anyway.

And I fell sick, finally.
I've been experiencing pain on my skin since last week, that kind of feeling which made you so uncomfortable when something brush across your skin you feel the soreness and it's really painful.
Kinda thankful I am sick right now because the pain is gone, just that I can't stop the flu and a little feverish isn't that bad after all. You go to sleep without worrying about the work left undone, you see bed and you just feel sleepy naturally.

Sick, sick, sick. I hope I'll be fine by Tuesday (: I love going to school, for some reason.

2008-05-17T01:49:00.002+08:00

My baby niece just looked different each time I saw her. She's getting more obvious with her features and I just love her eyes.

I didn't have much time to go down to Grandma's place and I really want to see baby!

Somehow I just thought of my two nephews when they were still babies, when I was at my Grandma's place almost everyday, sort of watched them grow up, and went to the same primary school as me.
Wonder if they will go to the same secondary school as well in future..

My Saturdays are really reserved for projects mannnnnnn.
Group members are coming over to my place and hopefully we can get it done asap so we can work on our own report on aspirin.
There's still PBL, shucks man.
And now, IDEA project again. Idiot.

It's okay to have a few projects at one time, but not when the deadlines so close to one another.

2008-05-16T16:20:00.011+08:00

Lol, we did not make it to the nursing home again, because min er couldn't go at the last minute.

So school ended really early because there was no bio practical, and so we were very free we decided to go Vivocity walk walk.

Walk walk walk until Peirong got herself a nike bag and I bought a volcom wallet, and grace was introduced to Green Tea Frappe and Milk Chocolate Digestive biscuits.
Surprisingly when I got home my mum didn't scold me for the wallet.
But she said,
" Buy. Buy more things ah. Buy until your atm no money. Go buy. "

Okay I don't take that as scolding but it did sound very sarcastic, hahaha.

This is Mr Mok :D
He's really really cute! haha. During lecture, he said something but I can't really remember the whole thing for this part.

Mok:
Later my wife curse you ah.
You do things cannot succeed, fall in love you fall out, you study you fail, and worst still,
you go home and find your grandmother pregnant.

?! Hahaha.

Alright gonna study a little and then pack my things and return back home!

Guys are always good at saying I dont know, somehow.
When a guy gets TOO MUCH with his I-dont-knows, it gets really irritating even though I'm seeing it as a friend or an outsider.
Imagine trying to get an answer that's bothering you for so long, and all the replies just went like I don't know.
But girl, good to see you smile now, you're strong yea :)

2008-05-14T18:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's.

I remembered reading peirong's post a few days ago and it quoted,

" If you think something can be missed, & there’s always ‘another time’, look back. Sometimes something can be given a miss, sometimes something just won’t wait for you. If you always think ‘next time’ has been reserved for you, think about it. This could be the last time, or obviously it is the last time? "

I think I've missed it few months ago by telling myself to wait and keep observing, till now that I'm clear of what I want, it's not there anymore.
I was wondering, if I was clear of what I wanted then, will things turn out differently?
But it's pointless now lah, no more means no more, haha.

Sometimes we easily made a mistake by not grabbing the opportunity as it comes to us, and we just became numb as we meet up with more of such things, we don't feel a thing anymore.

It's really pointless to me now.
Royston & Grace, so now you know why I'm giving up, there's a reason for everything (:

Hahaha.
Min Er didn't go to school today! So our trip to the nursing home was cancelled, and we will be going tomorrow instead :)
I can't wait. Haha

Alright, got to go do my report on that stupid Salmonella bacteria now.
:(

2008-05-14T00:57:00.002+08:00

The only cd I didn't regret buying is probably Mr Big's, not that I bought a lot of cds over the years, but I listened to it every night and concluded it is the best one I have so far.
The long hair era.

Oh! Did I mention we made aspirin during practical yesterday?
Oh man, the smell of vinegar, smell of ethanol, scent of the sweet fruity smelling ester, wheee so high.
I have a shitty formal report to do, but thank goodness we achieved a boiling point so near to the theoretical one and also with high percentage yield, we don't have to worry about the accuracy for this experiment (:

2008-05-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

Haha conversation with Jannifer.

(Jan) You pick me up when I fall down says:
haha go and sleep lah you! and dream of the pretty me
In loving memory of the one that was so true says:
Oh please
You pick me up when I fall down says:
hahaha!!!
In loving memory of the one that was so true says:
Don't be another royston
In loving memory of the one that was so true says:
LOL
You pick me up when I fall down says:
OPPZ. but im prettier than him;D
You pick me up when I fall down says:
i hope royston sees this and try to be prettier than me;D
In loving memory of the one that was so true says:
Alright. But he got BETTER THINGS to do than to go visit my lifeless stupid blog. like what he always say -.-
In loving memory of the one that was so true says:
IDIOT

So Royston if you see this, I welcome you to my lifeless stupid blog.

Goodnight! I'm heading off to bed now, 3 hours of sleep last night was really not enough not enough not enough!
Ahaha

2008-05-12T19:51:00.002+08:00

I wanted to spend quality time on my own at Starbucks after school to catch up on the work that's behind time. But judging at the amount of rest I had last night, I dropped the idea because I might just fall asleep doing my reports. Lol

Okay, today is the start of whole new stress.
As usual, girls please take note :)

1. IOC Tutorial 3

2. I think there's EM1 tutorials, wherever he stopped.

3. CPPB Practical Report

4. IOC Exp 2 Formal Report (Hand in on week 7. Font 11/12, Arial/Times New Roman. Hard copy. )

5. PBL Progress

6. Report Writing on Salmonella (Hand in this Friday! OMG ) There's a test for RWP as well on week 7, hand written, 30% weightage.

That should be all. (:

Meeting the group at 10am tomorrow for project when school starts at 1pm!
Lol I think for the rest of the sem, every tues has to be like that, when we meet up for projects when that is the only day we can sleep till late morning.

I'm HAPPY BUT TIRED TODAY!!!! I hope it can be like this everyday!
:D

I wish to give it up but I kept going back on my words
I'm still holding on here, for something hopeless which I'm pending on
will things turn better one day, or will it never be okay anyway

2008-05-12T15:31:00.002+08:00

Whee, I was testing out trying to change my blogskin and suddenly with all the editings here and there it became quite plain.

And with even more editings, it became just a piece of green thing -.-
Promote the smiling Earth, Save the environment! GREEEEEEN

Well, I think it's quite gentle to the eyes, so I'll just leave it as it is.

/

I'm learning citation now. Wow, plagiarism! Haha

2008-05-11T23:16:00.005+08:00

Celebration at Grandma's place (:

And this

Seventeen years from then, we bonded so well I see you one time I box you one time.
This will never change, just like you're my cousin and it will never change too!

I love family times like that! It felt like cny again and we get to see almost everyone :D
I feel so blessed, so XIN FU.
Told you I don't know anything else to make me any happier :)

2008-05-11T15:03:00.005+08:00

I have a lot of flaws I don't want to count.
I always want to run away from tough times but at the very end the one which suffers is my mind.
I'm not brave enough to face certain things even though I'm daring enough to walk the whole of thomson road at 1am back home.
I was soft hearted right from the start, when I toughen up, I feel so heartless.
I feel insecure very easily that was how most things ended.

And many more.

Sometimes when everything seems worthless, I think of the times spent with so many people and it did, made me feel better (:

THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME

Mum, Dad, Godma
Thank you for being wonderful parents, you had your ways to teach me which I am grateful for. Without a dad with this temper and such rules, I wouldn't be what I am today. And most of my years spent with mum were full of ups and downs, I love you mum, hope you take care of your health. Godma you're the sweetest! You love me from the start like your own daughter and I love you very much too! Wish you both a Happy Mother's Day (:

Grandma & Grandpa
Grandma you're the best I have with me for the 17 years, there's nothing more I can ask for.
Grandpa you will always be a part of me, whether I know you or not.

All my girls
Love all of you girls, there's a part of me that wanna thank you people so much, without you girls, I wouldn't know what friendships are all about.
Thank you for making me feel loved in sec sch, work and poly life :D

All the guy buddies
There's not a lot of people in this category, probably only 3 or 4 ? But still, with you guys I can be myself. Thank you for being there, if not I'll be a total feminist. Lol

KCB
I wouldn't forget the times we made music together, and the awesome times with my EXCOS, cried together laugh together sweat together. I love you, thats it. (:

The past
Thank you for the good memories you gave me in the past. That was the first time in my life when I felt completed, which was something I couldn't forget for the rest of my life.
Thank you for whatever you've once done and said, stay yourself and bring happiness fun and laughter to the people around you (: I hope you know I'm talking about you, thanks friend (:

The 6 categories played an important part in my life, with these I wish to just stay like that for as long as I can and never grow up.
My life felt completed at this stage (:

2008-05-11T00:04:00.003+08:00

Gosh, I was studying and Itunes played this track which touched me so deep down in my heart I just stop reading my notes and concentrate on the lyrics so carefully.

Thank you for loving me - Bon Jovi

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words and I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
that you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Lock the doors
leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words and I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
Oh, when I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me the wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh, for loving me

2008-05-10T22:41:00.004+08:00

I baked a cheesecake for my mum for Mother's Day :D

When I was done with baking, she starts praising guys who can cook.
I think it's very funny how she said it, made all of them sound so gay. Hahaha

There's Mother's Day celebration at grandma's place tomorrow! :D

Alright, got to study now while waiting for the cake to cool down before sending it to the fridge!

2008-05-10T01:12:00.002+08:00

9 MAY.

Happy Birthday Mel, Happy Sweet 15 ! (:
Happy Birthday Dear, Happy Sweet 17! (:

I just came back from peirong's birthday bbq at Westcoast park! It was greaaaaaaat :D

I'll post some pictures up once I get it from peirong.

We were the first group to present our product so peirong can leave to prepare for her birthday.
I've never been the first to do a presentation before in my life, not even in pri or sec school.
So the fear was there but I guess we did pretty alright because we sounded confident, at least that's what I think! haha
Well done team mates jinyong and peirong! :D

I can't wait for Royston's presentation next week!

I hope you had a great birthday peirong dear ! :D

/

I am really blessed and fortunate. Thank you whoever who picked it up and put it in my letterbox, otherwise I wouldn't know what I'll do. Thank you!
Thank God.

OMG OMG WAIT WAIT WAIT.
While I'm typing this post and watching tv the same time then......

WTH XIAO JING TENG'S ALBUM WILL ONLY COME OUT IN JUNE INSTEAD OF MAY?!
Reporter please tell me you're kidding.

I've been waiting SO LONG and looking forward to May and it will only be released in june ?!
WHY! OMGGGGGG.

Okay patience patience. Good things are worth waiting for.

2008-05-09T12:09:00.002+08:00

My mood is fluctuating, my attention lifespan is getting shorter, the cramps are hurting more,
and then I go high, and then low. Then I just felt like sleeping.

Recently there's been too much of these, and it's just a sign that the day of the month is here,

My hormones are not balanced, and it's times like that when you know you don't have to blame yourself because it's normal.

I RATHER KILL MYSELF THAN TO ENDURE THIS PAIN SINCE YESTERDAY.

LOL, this cppb module is getting on my nerves.
I feel so stressed, trying to figure out the mole calculations WITHOUT A PERIODIC TABLE.
Anyway, how can cppb not have a periodic table in the first place!

IT'S CPPB ! CHEMICAL PROCESS PRINCIPLES B. CPPB, CPPB, CPPB.

2008-05-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

Today I feel so emo because of cramps! :(

Hahahaha. YAY WE'RE DONE WITH ZBRUSH!
Presentation tomorrow (:

I didn't join sp band in the end!
Jannifer, peirong, jin yong and I went for Welfare Services Club instead :)

I will not stop my love for music even though I'm placing my main focus on community services.
Just that I needed a cca I can enjoy instead of getting stressed up during sectionals having to worry if the tone and rhythms produced are desirable.

I'll touch my saxophone really soon, probably in june, with jones and band.
So I don't have to worry about losing touch with the sax! (:

PEIRONG'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROWWWWWWWW!
WESTCOAST WESTCOAST WESTCOAST !

2008-05-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

Replies to tag

Mich - I miss you and russell ! :( You sent me the message today telling me you drinking drink tea frappe, I JEALOUS! I so long never drink already.

Pris- I ALSO WANT TO MEET UP :( SUPER BUSY WITH SO MANY THINGS. I WANT TO DIE ALREADY HAHA. Next week!

Terrance - Haha terrance siolxzx, why you suddenly so caring. Thanks ah terrance, you suddenly so sentimental I feel so gan dong siazxzx. HAHAHA
Don't worry, I'm okay. And what you mean by noise, you air pollutant everytime sneeze. But anyway, thanks for those words you always say you can fly and hold the sky if it falls anytime. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! (:

I had a tiring day. More to come tomorrow! 9 to 5.30pm! AHHHHH WO BU YAO.
You know sometimes, I feel I needed to spend quality time on my own to spring clean my brain. It's times like that when you have a clearer view of everything.
I've been spending all my time with people around me, a little bit of quality time on my own will be useful (:

Goodnight, sleep tight.
(:

2008-05-06T14:27:00.004+08:00

It's a great day today, yet not a very good one.

I had two gastric attacks both on my way to school and back home.
The pain was so intense that I'm not used to it because it didn't hurt for many months until today.
I was enjoying peace for a few months until today.

Everything was fine in school after the first attack and I managed to calm it down by visiting the toilet several times.
It was alright as well when I studied alone at bishan library.

On my way home after leaving Denise and Aaron, the pain came suddenly and I cried because I couldn't stand the pain. Omg, so dumb, it shall be my first and last time to cry over any pain man.

I still couldn't understand what was the cause of it since I didn't do what I'm not supposed to.

But on the other side, it's a great day because as usual I had fun with my friends! The usual ones.
When nearing the end of the last lesson of the day, we completed our class work half an hour before the end of class.

We couldn't afford to be bored so peirong and I had music to our ears and we started imitating rock bands again, this time not hand signs and yelling but vigorous shaking of heads like those really engrossed guitarists.

When we're finally done with it, we saw fiqah and her group laughing. So they have been watching right from the start. Hahah

I just love to do such things with peirong and giving that retarded No~ its wrong ~ its wrong ~
Then jinyong will give the super unique laughter with the ultra small eyes.
I love the class and the group with grace peirong royston jinyong and jannifer!

2008-05-05T19:14:00.002+08:00

Today's weather is not bad at all! It's still pretty cooling right now, I hope it will rain soon!

Alright girls, these are the projects we have on hand right now so do remember to meet up with your own groups regularly and clear them on time! :D

1. Z Brush 1 image 3 uses, presentation due this Friday.

2. EM1 PBL. Progress review on week 5, which is next week, I think.

3. CPPB Practical Experiment, 2 weeks from now!

I realized I see Rudi and Zainul almost everywhere I go, for quite a few days in a week.

I miss Michelle suddenly. Haha mich are you glad to see this.
I miss the times we drank Starbucks Green tea frappe after work, and Russell the tau huay stall at selegie!
I miss you two man.

I'm talking to Mich now and she might be working at Contempo! OMG, SO GOOD.
First you get a super nice supervisor JAM, next you get super nice colleagues, then you get paid.

That lucky woman.

I need a part time job too, my leftover income is finishing.
:(

And then I also need to concentrate on the two irritating modules CPPB and Microbio, which drove all of us crazy.

I'm watching Deathnote again on cable tv! It's the manga version and Kira's so cute.

2008-05-04T03:01:00.004+08:00

To feel your presence I want to be near you to feel your love,
the love you given everyone in the past,
the love I experienced for only 2 years
the love that ended with sweets you promised and never returned.
I want to feel it again.

I want to know how you struggled before you left
Did you battled, or leave with a peaceful smile
I want to know but it was hidden deep down in everyone
no one is there to tell me
I can only love you from what I know about you.

You loved me you loved everyone
You loved your wife you loved our grandmother
How did you look like
What were the things you like
Which were the colours you like
Which were the food you enjoy
When was your birthday
Where you came from
All these I'd love to know if I knew how to think 15 years ago

Can you hear me when I call out to you in my heart
Will you be able to recognize me 15 years later
Do you still love me as much
Can you see this message from me to you

There are no tears because I keep no memory of you
I could only keep recalling hard enough about the times we spent together
If you were here right now
You would be my best confidant

Though everything was 15 years ago,
there will always be a question about you
I will try to remember you harder each day
I will love you more in my memory

You're watching over us
I believe you were the man of everyone then
I love you so much, even though.....
(:

In loving memory of the one that was so true.
(:

2008-05-02T15:51:00.004+08:00

At times, we bottle up feelings deep down and probably explode when it reached its limit

Sometimes, we say sorry to make ourselves feel better

Most of the time, we cling on to the ones we love and forget about how we can probably stand on our own if we learn how to.

At times, sometimes, most of the time...
Does it even matter anymore ?

I had a lot of commitments going through my mind that I wish to get rid of but I can't because they are really the things I'm dying to try, I'm willing to do.
But time is not enough to fulfill every one of them.

If given a choice right now, I really want to be given a chance to fly to Cambodia, Chiang Mai or any other countries in south east asia for visits at the poor villages. All it took was photos of children smiling to get me thinking about this idea.

I kind of regretted not joining the Community services and cultural club in sp, I have no idea why I didn't take up as well.

But there is something I have to consider carefully before giving my nod to it.
Symphonic Band.
I went for trial today, as we sat in with the instruments, I had no confidence at all because I haven't been touching the saxophone for so long. It was a sudden lack of confidence.

We played grade 6 pieces, which made me real lost because all I played in band in secondary school were maximum grade 3 pieces. It is two times the grade.
But still managed to figure out the running notes in the end.
It was a good experience anyway, with a band of 120 players.

It requires real commitment for two days per week and I will die on Fridays because it will be 8am to 9.30pm of school in total.

Therefore, this is one I really have to consider carefully before I go for the camp next Friday.

On the lighter note, we've done the project on practical ! :D
We've done it, yay you great team mates are wonderful hahaha,

But.
While this project is done, we had another one coming up due next Friday,
and we have to do the PBL project altogether as well. Goodness me.
There's also a case study to be done by week 12, which requires a lot of work I guess, if not why week 12 ? Lol.

I really want to clear all these, one by one.

If you waited an hour for someone important on a particular day, you will never want a second time you can't forget the damn feeling of being so jaded

Anyway, cheeeer up Peirong! :D
Beat the blues together, I'll be there girl !
Always remember this, " NOOO~ IT'S WRONG ~ IT'S WRONG ~ " .
:D

2008-04-30T23:46:00.004+08:00

The weather's slightly better, but it's not really helping because I was down with flu and somehow sneezing hurts my ears.
I feel a little sore in my right ear and I hope I don't go deaf. Hahaha.

Alright I went Kbox with Graceyyyy today :)
It was so fun and we got really tired in the end after all the endless tracks on the list.

Alright girls, these are the work we need to clear by this week! Add oil Add oil and beat the stress!

1. EM1 Tutorial 2 Qn 2, 3, 6.
EM1 Tutorial 1 finish up the rest

2. CPPB Revision Exercises on Gas Laws

3. CPPB Case Study ( Found on Blackboard, read chapter 4 before viewing video)

4. IDEA ZBrush - 3 different images

5. CPPB Practical Project due on Monday (for your own groups)

6. Remember to get your lab coats before Monday if you haven't !

Just when a public holiday finally arrives, we will be working on our project on Labour Day.
Half of the group will be coming to my place so I hope it will be completed by tomorrow so it could be sent to Jannifer for editing! :D

2008-04-28T19:50:00.002+08:00

Mondays! It's not a good day lor.

We had to bear with the weather that was so terrible, and when we were in the lecture rooms we were so deprived of the air con.
Peirong and I got really crazy in class and we just laughed at each other's actions, do nonsensical stuff and couldn't control our laughter at all.

This was what we did to entertain ourselves in class, then we slowly spread the entertainment to the row in front.

It's our hands! :D So there was a shark and an elephant.
Mr Mok probably didn't notice what we were doing, hahaha.

3rd pic : The shark met the whale.

4th pic : The shark ate the whale.

That's probably the storyline. LOL

Okayyyyyyy I wanna go revise my CPPB and Microbio now.

2008-04-25T20:39:00.006+08:00

This was the most tired day of the week, as I type now I feel my eyes closing, the next thing I need to do is to get a hot and nice bath. I will feel so contented.
Thank goodness it's weekend tomorrow. I didn't know fridays can be so tiring.
I always expected it to be Mondays because it's the dreadful start of the week and always accompanied by the blues.

I woke up at 5.30am, spent the 2 hour break doing practical project with the group members, and ended school at about 5 plus in the evening. Freaking tiring.

Feeling really tired after school, I met jo koh to return my cd, while I've forgotten to bring his alter bridge ones out before I came out of house this morning! Argh. Hahaha

I've been listening to a lot of Hinder and Nickelback again these days. I really love how rough the vocals are and the tracks get more and more meaningful as I put them on repeat over and over again.

It took me half an hour to type this short post because I keep forgetting what I wanted to say.
There were too many words to take in when my emotions were running high and jumbling up the messages on the way to my brain.

All I know is, I need to bathe right now, but I need sleep even more.

I told myself I won't miss you but I remember what it feels like beside you

2008-04-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
the only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like we had nowhere we needed to go
Nice and slow, to no place in particular

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you and at least there's me
Can we get this back,
can we get this back
To how it used to be

I used to reach for you when I got lost along the way
I used to listen, you always had just the right thing to say
I used to follow you, never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow to anywhere at all

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you and at least there's me
Can we get this back, can we get this back
To how it used to be

I look around me and I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you it's empty and you're sad
Cause you miss the love that we had

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around
The only one around
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you and at least there's me
Can we get this back, can we get this back...
To how it used to be

Chris Daughtry - Used to

" You're a disappointment over and over again I smile and let things pass, willingly. "

2008-04-22T22:13:00.005+08:00

I have no idea what to blog about today, but to fill up the space I'll write something.

Due to certain incidents, you learn more about the people around you. I don't mean the negative way, but how they care for you, stood by you and share the ups and downs.

The girls who were there for years, Pris & Vanessa.
Different personalities didn't stop us from becoming best friends :D

And the other girls Fabian called The Six, I thought that was pretty dumb. haha.
I hope we will still keep in contact even though now we're busy as an individual, I love you all still :D

And now, the two girls Grace & Peirong.
Thanks for being there though we started off as friends just a week ago, stay strong girls toughen up and we'll be able to get through the blues! Always there for you alright (:

I met up with Pris and Vanessa for dinner. Vanessa passed me her secondary school Biology textbook which I'm going to learn the basics from, to make sure I know the concepts before I move on further to the bio module in class.

Whats more! She wrote a note saying "Study Hard" and drew a picture of a stick man saying hehehe and a tree! AWWWWWWW.
Gan Dong.

Hahahaha. Alright I'm so happy I'm ending school as early as 1pm tomorrow!
I think I'll make a visit to the home beside my place to see if I can join them for services, since I promised I will.
(:

I don't mind if you don't mind cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go can you read my mind

2008-04-21T21:33:00.004+08:00

I had a tiring day today! Monday blues uh. Hahaha

7 REASONS WHY I DISLIKE MONDAYS.

1. I have to wear long pants and covered shoes, bundle up the hair and wear safety goggles.
Because it's practical day. With all these you feel so warm you can explode due to the heat.

2. It's report writing & presentation day so laptop is compulsory.

3. I have to miss the first few trains because of the crowd at the peak hour.

4. Once I managed to get into the train, I have to squeeze with everyone so sweaty and trying to breathe in as much oxygen is actually useless.

5. When I finish school, I need to squeeze with everyone at the peak hour again.

6. I start school at 8am, I had to wake up at 5.30am.

7. I finish school at 5pm.

1 reason why I dislike TODAY.

I showed Grace something and I realised....
Alright don't talk about it anymore.
Haha.

During RWP, Royston was beside me, he saw the pictures of steamboat, food and all on my com and started to whine like a girl about how hungry he was.

Roy :
Wa lao you see la ~ Make me hungry already you know. What steamboat sia, looks so nice "

Me:
School is ending soon la. ta han abit la. Also not like you never eat just now. You damn whiny! "

Roy:
Wa lao I cannot stand it already la. You see la I really damn hungry sia. I go yahoo search. "

The next moment I saw his screen filled with images of Fries chips Macdonalds from Yahoo Images. Like it will ever help ? LOL

Well, I really enjoyed Practical and RWP because there were lots of laughter. The rest was okay but it was pretty dead we all felt like sleeping especially during ITM.

BEFORE break

DURING break.

I waited for Eileen to end her lesson and we headed back to Grandma's place after school.

2008-04-19T00:01:00.004+08:00

I was at Gracey's birthday chalet awhile ago!

It was so fun! We played games and the punishment is to eat the marshmallow dipped with all sorts of sauces! I ate one, yucks.

And I made more new friends over there! Haha, Grace's friends are all soooo crazy! I like :D

Royston was full of crap today! Made me and peirong laughed like mad.

During CPPB we were separated due to insufficient seats for everyone in the row, so I was sitting with peirong at the back of the class and as usual there was so much nonsense.
We were imitating the electric guitar and heavy metal, screamos.
We controlled our laughter so hard we bend to the front, back, left, right.
Hahaha I love going crazy with peirong and the rest !

Once again Happy Birthday Gracey! It's really nice to have you people as friends, love you all !

2008-04-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Graceyyyyyy!!!
Happy sweet 18 and hope you enjoy yourself during the chalet! :D

I haven't been doing Amaths for so long and this engineering maths tutorial is easier than O levels but it's taking me ages to solve the questions.

Boo Boo Boo Boo BOOOOOO.

These broken chords remain unspoken, yet it remains the most beautiful melody ever

2008-04-17T17:10:00.002+08:00

I love school ! Especially with the same crazy people!

Haha and Royston started my laughing bug when he demonstrated the
" WTF Whats your PORBERM " at Jin yong.
Sister Chee very funny. Hahah

And I found someone who is slow in responding too !
Grace was telling us a joke during Microbiology class and Jinyong laughed only after few seconds and the whole thing was so funny because of his laughter and the whole row were laughing as well. Mr Mok saw and got us to keep quiet.
MR MOK SO CUTE. Haha

School ended exceptionally early today, which is double yay!
We were supposed to have a 2 half hour practical but it turned out that it's our buddy class that's starting today, not us !

I can't wait for Grace's birthday chalet tomorrow!!!
Should I stay over, bahhh.

I'm at Mac doing tutorial with Aaron and Denise! Wheee.

2008-04-17T00:06:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Matthew!
Happy sweet 18, MEGA 18 ! :) ENJOY.

I have a freaking headache right now, I think it's due to the heatstroke today.
Somehow I feel a little dehydrated no matter how much water I drink.
Trying not to rely on panadol but this pain is not getting any better.

The train at Ang Mo Kio took a good 15 minutes to Bishan due to train fault and the stopping and moving makes me feel like puking, I was tolerating all the way to Dover.

There was overcrowding in the train and I could hardly breathe among all the tall working adults because I am too short to fight for oxygen.

I have very nice and crazy classmates, to help me feel motivated for studies I'm sure.
But right now,
it's either I'm putting too much pressure on myself, or I am not ready for school at all.

I'm looking at the Engineering Maths tutorials, I'm gonna do it tomorrow.
I'm feeling kinda helpless now, it's Maths, Jayne's weakest subject for the past 10 years.
Hahaha.

2008-04-15T20:07:00.003+08:00

I met up with Peirong, Gracey and Royston for lunch at Bugis!

It was a pretty short day with only two modules that stretched from 1pm to 5pm.
There was a little discomfort in my left eye which I tried to ignore, apparently it didn't work and I felt a sharp pain in the eye which lasted for about a minute,
I started to tear, and I had to take the lenses out immediately.

Went back to Bishan with Royston, it's good to have a classmate who goes the same way with you after school, it makes the trip back home less boring because you have someone to talk to, and what's more he's the sister ! HAHA yes sister.
LOL

Can't wait for Grace's birthday chalet this friday! :D

Met Matthew to pass him a bag and I had dinner, and my big ulcer under the tongue is not giving me enough appetite for dinner.

Basically, I'm feeling so weird today.
Press the DO button several times and wonder why the lift door doesn't close,
got out at the 6th floor, walked up to the 7th and realised I got out at the wrong one.
Tried to shift the bulky items to the side in order to clear the corridor and ended up bumping into my metal gate.

WHAT A DAY!

Anyway, I was supposed to meet Vanessa and Pris tomorrow but Vanessa can't make it so I'll be having dinner with Pris only.
Wheeeeee, I'm meeting pris again :)

2008-04-14T21:05:00.002+08:00

I'll be a total idiot if I stayed on any longer.
I believe you had your reasons, just tell me it's not self denial.

I had a good time today with the same people even though the lectures and tutorials are pretty dry and boring, made us doze off.
I like Mr Mok's lesson! He's a very cute old man, haha.

Meeting the class tomorrow at Bugis for lunch before going to school !
All Gracey's idea lah, so far you know :(
Hahaha

2008-04-14T00:30:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Robin Lam!
Good luck with the last few months/weeks with the band before you step down.
Happy Beautiful Sunday! (:

Each time I attend a concert, I always get so amazed by whatever band that's performing up there, be it famous or not, prestigious or what.

The Philharmonic Winds & Philharmonic Youth Winds present Beautiful Sunday at Esplanade.
The concert was fantastic ! I mean, it's Philwinds and Philyouth, they are always rated the upper scale.

Oh oh, Dennis Sim simply stands out in the whole percussion section you should see the way he do the beats and hit the drums with just the two drumsticks he creates wonders, even with a simple shaker he did it so beautifully.
Ahhhhhh.

So I met up with Iggy to exchange our saxophones, so he will have my soprano sax as long as I'm still holding on to his alto sax.

And I was supposed to meet malcolm to pass me something, but it was cancelled in the end and I got Cassandra out to thomson plaza to have dinner with me!
And I was kinda tired so basically our conversation was full of nonsense.

Cass : You tomorrow start school right ? Got monday blues not ?

Me : I everyday blues.

2008-04-13T00:46:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Dad <3
Hope you enjoyed this day, I love you.

Anyway, there was a problem loading the photos so I got only a few of them up.

My all boys saxophone section, I'm so proud of each and every one of them (:

With the band boys.

KCB <3

2008-04-12T01:50:00.003+08:00

My head starts to ache the moment I start thinking about this.

I can't seem to stop myself from thinking, but it is really going too far ?

I'm feeling way too insecure, I really wish sleep right now can give me a break and get me away from thinking.

Bah, shit man.

Anyway, put that aside and I got to concentrate on my school work coming up next monday.

I just had an overview of what we're going to learn on monday.
And wow, this will be the contents.

CP5035 Chemical Process Principles B

Provides basic concepts of chemical engineering. Students will learn gas and solution laws, the concepts of thermodynamics and material and energy balances. It also provides an overview of various unit operations, its principles and applications in chemical process industries. In addition, students will visit production plant where they will gain an appreciation of various processes in the industries.

CP4006 Inorganic & Organic Chemistry

Provides students with the essential knowledge and understanding of the fundamental principles of Inorganic and Organic Chemistry. It enables students to understand the theoretical basis of physical and chemical properties of molecules. Students will also have a broad understanding of the chemical reactions of the various functional groups of organic compounds

CP6002 Introduction to Microbiology

Provides students with an overview and appreciation of the biology of microorganisms. The module will emphasize, with some relevant examples, on the importance of microorganisms to man and the environment. Students will have practical experience on some microbiological techniques

LC0203 Report Writing and Presentation

Aims to help students acquire the skills necessary to prepare and write reports and to make oral presentations to an audience. Students will learn to appreciate the purpose of their report as well as the expectations of their intended reader. In putting together the report, students will learn to organise their information in a reader-friendly way and write in Standard English. For report presentation, areas stressed include verbal and non-verbal language, audience awareness, voice quality and use of visual aids.

And it ends at 5pm! LOL.

I was with the band at Founder's Day just now and I had fun with them!
All the cheers and stuff, makes me miss the good old times. Oh well, I always say that same old sentence when I talk about band, didn't I ?
Hahah, waiting for Robin to send me the photos!

2008-04-10T19:37:00.004+08:00

SP Flag Day was fun was Pei rong, Grace and Wei yun!
I didn't sleep at all last night so I'm freaking tired right now.

We went totally high and crazy, and joined as half a class later.

Pei Rong & Wei Yun

With Graceeee

Half the class :
Jin yong, Royston, Yu yun, Mei Xin, Jannifer, Aisyah, Fiqah, Jayne, Pei Rong, Weiyun, Grace.

Alright, I'll go drink some soup for dinner and go to bed.
SUPER DUPER TIRED.

2008-04-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

SP Flag Day tomorrow!
There's also freshman party after 3pm, yay!
The class will be doing it at Toa Payoh, and I hope it's gonna be fun. LOL

You know how jealous I get when I hear Aaron and Denise tell me about their enthu classes on the first day of orientation !
Anyway it doesn't really matter I believe the people in my class will open up soon.

AND AND AND.
Aaron's class has like, 3 saxophonists and one of them was a band major in her secondary school !
That's so cool ! I will make him introduce them to me!

I came across these sentences while reading an article and it got me thinking hard what it really means.

“The worst reconciliation is better than the best divorce”

& this

“Once a woman parts with her virtue, she loses the esteem even of the man whose vows and tears won her to abandon it”

Man, I can't fall asleep but I have to wake up at 6plus later.
I'd rather stay awake and not fall asleep not being able to wake up later, but I assume I will be very tired after the party.
But I am not going to sleep, it's only 5 more hours.
So tell me, what should I do to occupy myself ?

( when I type so much I determined I'm not making sense here, which means I'm feeling cranky, because I'm tired. )

What contradiction! LOL, I still have a clear mind though, I know my nameeeeeee :)

Sometimes the little things can prove how much someone means to you

2008-04-09T01:00:00.002+08:00

I had a conversation with Eileen online just now and totally agreed on certain things we said,
same mentality and all, haha love you cousin ! (:

Anyway, there was SPICE training today.
Everything was good, I'm getting the hang of it.

And I miss the girls ! Goodness me.
I miss them as though they are my boyfriend, I can't wait to see them soon, so many things to tell them.
Hahaha.

No school tomorrow, SP Flag Day on Thursday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE CHAN, LOVES :D

2008-04-08T01:08:00.004+08:00

My class is DCP1B22 !

Early in the morning I met Zainul to go to school together, done our registration and attended a super long talk in the hall.
The first person I know in the morning was Shi Kun, Zainul's new friend who is taking the same course as me. He's nice (:

Next I got to know Ren Aun, Shi Kun's friend. He looks like someone but I can't remember who.
So he's pretty friendly too (:
Same course, different class.

Then then are pretty nice classmates, Grace Shafiqah Tharshiela and Aisyah!
The class is really really quiet compared to 1B21.
Probably because there are only 6 guys in the class and usually males are the first enthu creatures to introduce themselves to the class.

So I am the assistant treasurer. Lol !

After school, I met Mich at Cityhall and guess what I fulfilled my desire for STARBUCKS GREENTEA FRAP.

BUT

the after taste of every sip was bitter like goodness me, pretty horrible.
Too much green tea powder I guess.
I still prefer the Thomson one, no matter what.

We waited for Russell to come and had dinner at Plaza sing, went to visit the ex colleagues at yamaha and my beloved Andrea!
And a trip to MS to find Kendrea and the baby Grand! :D
I'm so happy I get to play on a grand piano for the first time in my life.

Russell and the twin brothers had their audition at B&J ! They pretty much inspired me to want to try for that audition as well !

There's SPICE training tomorrow.
Lol.

2008-04-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

I had a nap, dreamt about Weihuang's birthday, woke up and
OMG I'VE FORGOTTEN SOMETHING SO IMPORTANT!

HAPPY BELATED 21ST BIRTHDAY (3o march) XIAO JING TENG ! <3

(uh, as if he's ever gonna know that I wished him -.- )

HAHAHA.

Blue skies turning grey like my love

2008-04-05T11:25:00.003+08:00

St Hilda's concert Impressions 9 was great, awesome.
It was a great time with the young ones who just joined the band, and of course with the seniors, it was totally enjoyable.

(:

So I went to East Coast after the concert to meet weihuang and people.
Happy Birthday Weihuang :D
All the best in everything you do and have a great 17 today!

We took a cab home around 1am in the morning and Vanessa stayed over at my place.
She headed home just a while ago and that explains why I'm up so early.

I wanna go back to sleep, super sleepy super tired my eyes can't even resist the temptation to close.

2008-04-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

This entire week has been a nightmare of non stop thoughts and tears.

Go eat shit.

2008-04-02T01:45:00.002+08:00

Every breath you take, and every move you make
Every bond you break, every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day, and every word you say
Every game you play, every night you stay
I'll be watching you

Oh, can't you see, you belong to me
How my poor heart aches with every step you take

Every move you make, every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've been gone, I been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around, but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby, please

- The Police/ Every breath you take

2008-04-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

I met Mich and Russell today for Sakae Sushi !

We went back to Yamaha to pass the little cards to the colleagues and Russell had his bass lessons after that, so we waited.
I was being super paranoid whether my card was being punched out yesterday. After forgetting to punch out three times, I asked Mich to help me punch while I was rolling the audit roll.

Who knows my paranoia starts kicking in and I'm so afraid of deja vu because it did happened to me twice, I had the feeling I'm not going to punch out next working day and I really did not punch out that working day! IT WAS VERY SCARY.

Haha, but the paranoia was taken over by the happiness from buying Mr Big's album!
:D

I can't wait for St Hilda's concert and the Philharmonics' !

2008-04-01T01:02:00.006+08:00

My last day of work, it's official. (:

After reading what my two best people wrote on their blogs, I felt something I couldn't explain but it was plain touching I couldn't possibly cry to show how touched I was -.-

Haha

My two best ladies will forever be the best girls, none other than Priscilla & Vanessa.

I totally agreed on how certain parts of our personalities don't click with one another like I couldn't understand how they can tolerate my slow response towards so many things.

Vanessa being the only one that I have regular conversations with each time I was online, keeping me company almost every night, while I know sometimes she was actually completing her school work behind the screen.

Pris always the one who went to my workplace and sometimes had dinner with me after that, also the one I fought my laziness with to go tuition all the way at Kembangan during the O levels period.

Now that we're posted to different schools, we will still set aside at least once a week for one another. I think it's very important we keep all of us motivated.

To look at the inner picture how our personalities don't click, but because in this friendship we learnt how to accept our flaws, throughout these years,

I had friends like them that I spent the bad and good times with.

There's two beautiful friendships I'm really grateful for. The one with Pris & Vanessa, and the other with Elaine and girls.

I got to see Michelle today! YAY, after so long! hahaha.

Today's her last second day of work.

Met up with Denise and Aaron after work! Finally get to see Denise !

I'm so happy today. Hahaha

2008-03-29T04:29:00.003+08:00

It was an unlucky start of the day for me.

BUT

I spent my day with the people I love.

I've never felt this way for ages already, bliss.
(:

My dad ruined his own surprise because he came along at the end of the day after I shopped for his present supposedly to be given to him for his birthday on 12 April.
He came and asked what was in that bag. Hahahaha

Me : FOR YOU ONE LAH. who ask you come, today give, 12 april no present for you already ah.
Dad : Wah I so touched. You see, I crying already.

Me : That's the oil on your face.

Haha.
I can't wait for my pay! After waiting for so long yesterday.
:D
YAY

2008-03-28T01:22:00.002+08:00

It was worst trip ever from my place to my workplace.

I had stomachache the minute I got out of my place and I had to bear with it all the way until I got off at Dhoby Ghaut.
The minute I stepped in, Melessa was shouting over to Kendrea

" OH YES JAYNE IS HERE. KENDREA JAYNE IS HERE! "

The reason why she shouted was because there was a customer over at the bookshop before I even start work and Kendrea was assisting her instead.
I had to bear with it EVEN MORE until she's done with her enquiries before I could rush to the toilet.
There was a phone call which I didn't bothered to answer before I run to the toilet.

Russell wanted to watch Step Up 2 but it was not available at both GV and Cathay,
so Russell, Kendrea and I went to Selegie for tauhuay!

I wanted to meet both Denise and Aaron at Bishan but Denise had work the next day so only Aaron was there.
But I'll be meeting Denise on Monday! I haven't seen that girl for so long, :(

I'm finally meeting Pris, Vanessa and Ronald tomorrow, I'm looking forward to meeting them!

2008-03-27T01:53:00.003+08:00

I have a lot of weird thoughts recently. Hahaha

I want to continue my saxophone by taking up jazz, so I can get related to the music I've lost.
Performing is an addiction, especially with your interest you never stop where you're going.
I want to play in a band, again.

I want to learn how to cook with greater details. Instead of the basics I wanna learn more!

I want to extend being a volunteer in mental hospital once I get my school schedule when term starts.

I want to keep myself motivated so I can still keep my dream alive three years later, though I don't get to do it now.

I want to spring clean my house, especially my room.

I want to know why am I having these thoughts, maybe it's the process of growing up.

But does hoping to know how someone feels part of the process of growing up as well ?

Yawn.
I wanna sleep now. NIGHT :D

2008-03-25T16:01:00.002+08:00

A sudden feel of nostalgia makes me feel nothing but a stupid fool who didn't try hard enough in the past.
I miss those feelings at those times with you, to be exact.
You're nothing but a special friend now, at least to me.

And somehow...
I really miss you for who you are.

//

I'm counting down to end of march! That means I'm ending work soon!
LOL

But really I'm gonna miss the colleagues, especially kailin who helped me so so so much.
:(

2008-03-23T18:45:00.002+08:00

A little ahead of schedule, I'm back from bangkok ! (:

Bangkok is pretty fun, but we couldn't shop to the max due to time constraint.
So anyway, there are lots of good and cheap buys there provided you keep bargaining.
I've never bargained so much in my entire life, so I'm quite proud of myself. Hahaha

It's fun when you start roaming the area on your own, meeting up at a certain spot a few hours later, but super irritating when I saw things I like but I've got no money because it's with my mum, and she was not with me.

And really, guys can never shop man...

I didn't manage to cover the areas, but well it's enough because I had a really hard time bringing so many things back. Lol

I learnt pretty much about the world after this trip.
Because in the room, Channel Newsasia is the only channel I understand, and I read straits times and sunday times on the trip to and from bangkok. For once I read every single article, even the advertisements -.-

Haha. I feel dead tired now. But I'm gonna stay awake for the S POP because the preview shows that XIAO JING TENG WILL BE THERE! OMG
heehee.

2008-03-21T00:53:00.003+08:00

With the punch card incident to start the day off badly, I knew closing wouldn't be good either.
Today's the lousiest day I think.
Nothing goes wrong when I do closing with Melissa/Kris while everything goes wrong when I do closing with Boss. I couldn't explain why this is happening either. hahaha

There's more to it but I'm not holding on to this incident, hahaha.

On the lighter note, I'm leaving for Bangkok tomorrow! WHEEEE
I don't want to feel all lousy just because of this incident at work, so I'm gonna enjoy my trip, throw my thoughts there and not bring them back. ahaha
I mean, we can't please everyone.
But really, thank you michelle for being there at that moment when I needed someone most.
(:

I've got to go airport in 6 hours time,
So I'll be away till Sun/Mon. Not sure what time though because the adults planned everything.
hahaha, I'll buy things back for you loved ones!

BYE!

2008-03-18T18:02:00.000+08:00

I fell sick, argh.

I've been very obedient on medication for the minor flu and cough just for the sake of getting well to go Bangkok this Friday.

Otherwise, I wouldn't have bothered so much whether to take this pill at this time, or not.

Rah, I'm so dead la.
I've forgotten to punch out for 2 working days! Boss nagged at me for the first one.
I woke up and realised, oh damn I think I haven't punch out.
So I quickly called Liyana and asked, indeed I was right.

I'm so gonna get it from her. Argh, why do I keep forgetting to punch out.
:(

2008-03-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

I'm loving life, I'm serious!

I like the pace of how things are going at right now, not too fast but not so slow either.
I'm enjoying what I do, and I'm going to do more of what I enjoy.

My shift for tomorrow's cancelled by Boss at the last minute because I'm working full shift on Monday, Liyana's taking over tomorrow, thanks girl!

I saw a very very cute child today and seriously I couldn't get her face out of my mind.
She's like really really cute. When she smiles, my heart melts.
I like her a lot, I couldn't bear to say goodbye to her when her mum carried her and left the place, because I have no idea when she will be back.

:D

2008-03-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

Take time to realize that your warmth is crashing down on in
take time to realize that I'm on your side,
didn't I, didn't I tell you.

I am so dead. I can't seem to fall asleep right now and I have full shift tomorrow!
I tried ways to make myself fall asleep but sigh, nothing beats the fixed body clock that went wrong since long time ago.

Okay something is wrong.
I'm working on Sunday with a last minute notice because I agreed to help Kailin work half shift that day. Haha
But it's fine with me since it's only half shift, but not exactly because I've got something on at night.

And I slowly realised how tired I'm going to look and how much sleep I'm going to miss after I ended the call.
Sat, Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed, Thurs - GONE.

I'm working 4 out of the 6 days above, and the two are meant for SP visit/enrolment.
When can I ever get my 14 hours of sleep STRAIGHT WITHOUT INTERRUPTION.

I'll be on your side, if you would realize

2008-03-14T16:28:00.000+08:00

When something is over, you are able to feel it.

I always thought I was tied down by it but it ended up just proving me wrong that I wasn't actually going the negative way all these while. Instead I felt stronger and could think better whether it's logical or not or sometimes maybe even subconscious, the wonders of challenges.

Everything is okay now, I'm really thankful for those who stayed by me from the rise of this issue to the end of it. (:
It was a peaceful deal, something I wouldn't expect and thanks for getting back to who you are because you know you belong to that nature, and not something else (:

I stayed in school last night with the alumni and the band while they had band camp.
It was one of the best times spent together with the alumni and I still miss the times when we played together under the baton of the conductor.

HEEHEE,
I went for my medical checkup for poly enrolment! It took me 2 hours to get everything done and I was one of the very very few that's from SP while everyone else from NYP.
It felt so weird I saw all of them holding a booklet from NYP and me holding a brown envelope from SP.

HAHA. The urine test was dumb.
The lady tested with a litmus paper and told me to tell the receptionist the result's normal.
I couldn't catch what she said so I went, " Har ? Normal ah ? "

She gave me the look and said,
" Then ? You want diabetes is it. "

On my way home I had a random thought. Not exactly random, but well it's something I always feel. Hahahaha

I came across this lady at the coffee shop staring into space, talking to herself. It then got to an extent she started scolding her imaginary second person and it was almost terrible.
People around her started to shift to other seats and she probably didn't even know what she was doing.

It reminds me of the old woman who wore the same shirt with untidy hair always appearing at the Macdonalds I spent many midnights studying for Os.
She was mentally unstable as well, she scolds the air, she talks to herself and even had her meals from the leftovers.

Most of them are doing pretty well in IMH, while some left untreated on the streets.
Wouldn't it be nice if more help and support are provided for these people ? (:

haha
Oh man, I need to sleep early tonight cause I'm working FULL SHIFT tomorrow and it's a WEEKEND.
It simply means, 11 hours of work.
Oh great, wonderful.

Watch tv watch tv watch tv watch tv ! YAY.

2008-03-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

I'm back from chalet ! We survived the 3 nights, SURE WE DID.
It was the slackest chalet ever and we all agreed on that.

All we did was to sleep at night, wake up in the morning/afternoon had lunch together, back to the room again, talk and slowly fell asleep.
Probably due to the rain, there's a limit to the number of activities we can do.
So the chalet was pretty free and easy.

Man, I miss my girls. I haven't seen them for so many weeks. BAH :(

I've got work tomorrow, and I hope everything's gonna be fine because we had a really bad time with the customers on Sunday.

2008-03-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

My gastric problem is acting up again since last week, so much for taking good care of it yet having the same old thing.
I am so disgusted by how I felt.

Oh man! :(

I worked the days straight and finally a day off tomorrow and it's full shift again on Sunday.
I'm going to stay at home and rest tomorrow.
If I happen to want to go out, please scold me.

Anyway just when I thought I can enjoy the chalet from Sunday night onwards, Boss needs me to work on tuesday because Ben has a lecture to attend.
So, to think the positive way, I'm earning more. Right ?
Negative way ? Don't even think.

Smile.

2008-03-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES

This is the first time for the past few months in my workplace which was usually filled with noise coming from people playing the pianos and kids running around, but today it seemed unusually quiet.
You could even hear your ear pressure when no one's talking at all.
hahahahaha.

Seriously it's so quiet! I mean, how many days like this can you get in working areas like that ?
Especially with the temptation to hit any key when you walk past the piano.
I finally get to work with liyana today! YAY :D
And she couldn't stop laughing after I stopped the video, I don't know why.
Now you see, silence makes you go mad.

Anyway, Julia Leonard Eiji came today and I was entertained for a while but they left pretty soon,
and the next big group which came was
Ron, alex, pie, glenn, and many many more.
Hahaha.
From the entrance I could hear a familiar voice trying to act as though he doesn't know a thing,
" IS THAT JAYNEEEEEEEEEE ???????? "

Lol.

Nelson was right. It felt more worthy like this than to work so much but to earn only so little.

2008-03-03T00:24:00.002+08:00

I was a few minutes late for work today and I didn't dare to look into Boss' eyes when she was standing beside Ben who looked frantically busy.

It was an average day without Boss nagging too much, she's pretty free the whole day so she was basically supervising every transaction I/Ben was doing.

I like working with Ben, it has been a month since I last worked with him.

Ben : Kailin's friend came for interview that day leh. And wah I tell you ah, her friends damn pretty lor.

Me : Wah lao, you come here see girls one ah.

Ben : Tsk. You go ask every guy lah, almost all of them will keep a lookout for pretty girls. What's more, I'm single. If I got girlfriend you think I will still do this meh.

Me : How I know. All guys the same.

Ben : You ah. Getting more and more against guys.

Right. Ben's the crappiest cashier I've worked with and my day's with Liyana tomorrow! FINALLY.

I met up with Michelle for dinner and movie at J8. The Leap Years is pretty awesome, indeed a touching movie and my nose was feeling very sour most of the time towards the end of the movie. I love local movies like this (:

I can't wait to go Bangkok, I wanna buy so many things. I wanna save up to go taiwan with the cousins too! Probably can find xiao jing teng there, you know. Or maybe his related products.

Gonna spend a little time with tv before I go to bed.

You gradually get greedy when you're given what you've always wanted slowly each day.
Before you even know it... you lose your senses, forgetting how simple things were before it happened.
Then you realised you're not for it, you're going to stop.
But....
can you ?

I really never knew it meant so much

2008-03-01T00:11:00.002+08:00

I'm happy today,
I finally brought my message across,
gotten an approval,
and had a great dinner with my friends (:

Jacq and Pris came to visit me at my workplace today and 1 hour after they left, Fabian and Jonathan came. They came when I was 15 minutes to ending shift, so they waited for me and we had a great dinner!
After dinner we went to Times, read some books and head to Bishan for bubbletea.
I totally miss this kind of feeling!

I haven't seen Fabian for quite some time.
It feels good to know that one of your best buds still understands you most although there wasn't frequent communication between the two of you but it's all based on the past experience from the time spent together in lower secondary.

Yay! No work tomorrow I wanna sleep sleep sleeeeeeeeep.
:D

2008-02-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Customers came with the idea of die die want to buy piano exam pieces and apparently all the yamaha branches have no stock for them and we do not further explain.

Some customers got pissed and say,
" How do you expect my daughter/son to take exam this way? It's in march you know, and you've got no stock ?! This is ridiculous and this is the largest outlet! "

In our mind we would be thinking,
* Sickening. Exam in march now then buy. Others already bought it months ago. Now you last minute come no stock also our fault. *

It happens every single day. Regardless if it's over the phone or walk in customer.

Some PTC also, tsk tsk.

Anyway, I'm drinking soup with the loved ones again tomorrow!
Hahaha yay.

2008-02-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANG HWEISHYAN!! It's late, because I didn't blog yesterday. HAHA

The birthday girl's celebration took place at Raffles City's Shokudo, the food was yummy!
Especially the salmon, you know I love salmon but too bad it's not buffet I can't have like
2331923791283 slices of them so I had only 5.

I was tired after that cause I stayed up late to finish some work the previous night and 5 minutes sleep on the bus could really make me feel all awake and fresh again.

Oh, and my cousin's baby born on 24 Feb! FEB BABIES FEB BABIES!
That makes me an aunt again, well she's so cute, long eyelashes and a lot of hair!

I'm working full shift, I wish I'm able to bring my message across tomorrow.
Ah, I love 660! Dinner again tomorrow :D

2008-02-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

Caught Deathnote with Michelle after work and it was great !

L is so cute, the movie has got more laughing scenes after he took care of the two children.
I think Mich got mesmerized by him after the movie she started putting his picture as her display pic on msn.
Well anyway, it was awesome right 660!

Oh, it's Harmi, 555 ! (:

Wheee, it's hweishyan's birthday celebration tomorrow. I'm meeting pris earlier because her house has no water, goodness I hope it doesn't happen to my block.

Right now, I have to do some stupid paper work. Right, I feel that I'm working in an office bringing home document that was undone to rush them through the night.

I'm freaking tired right now. My eyes hurt.

2008-02-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

I'm watching the interviews of Lydia Sum on channel 53, and got my nose a little sour when she mentioned about how she stayed by her daughter all the years after her divorce with her ex husband.
They also mentioned about her shows which made the audience happy, I recalled a few of them by her which I watched on tv when I was very very young.

When I switched channel, I saw the news about Edison Chen's scandal.
He's so good looking but the scandal thing was a pity.

Mum : Eh. I saw the pictures and web leh. Ai yo, didn't expect it.

Me : Really ah. Show me lor

Mum : YOU SIAO AH. I wouldn't be your mother if I show you.

Me : I was just kidding right -.-

Haha.

Anyway, I'll be working tomorrow and having dinner with michelleeeeeee! Yay, finally a day with us knocking off at the same time, we have time to slowly eat and not having to consider about what time punch in what time go back what time is it now.

YAY :D

2008-02-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

I'm very happy today because I like working at Clementi for clearance sales! :D
Well yea, initially I had a feeling I'm not going to like working there because I'll be all alone and I'm totally unfamiliar with the people from Clementi branch.

But ahha! There's Pat and other full timers from other branches as well, they're very funny which made work seemed pretty fun with them. My partner cashier of the day is Taufik from Tampines branch and I didn't know 555 is a plaza sing combo staff until he went like
" I thought he's from your branch ? "

HAHAHA. 555 is very cute, really very cute. His name is either Kabis or Harbis, or somewhere along there.

There's Dennis Sim as well (can't stop myself from associating him with Andy Sim), I couldn't stop finding him familiar looking and realised he's actually from Philharmonic Winds and the band has been to his concerts. He's a very funny guy, they call him Ah Huat.

There's Kelvin who was from the Superband competition two years ago.
There's also Bryan who stick the $80 label on me and lehlong me for that price with SKU 661, that's my staff number okay -.-

I went to check my eyes after work and the experience was horrendous!
I had difficulties pinching/squeezing the lens out of my eyes because they went too dry too fast and it became like a total stick-on on each of my eye.
It finally came out after many attempts and left me with a super duper red and swollen left eye. The right is fine.

Bah I have to work out my March schedule now because boss needs it tomorrow. I think I'm working until the end of April.

Oh before I forget, Happy Birthday Malcolm! :D

Hweishyan's day coming up next!

2008-02-21T14:17:00.000+08:00

Bah.

I just came back from lunch with pris and vanessa!

I'm chatting with Xiangjun on the phone now and we're talking about work. Haha
All you need is 1 month to find it hard to trust the people around you, to lose yourself in such a way you don't even wish to know what's happening, and to find it's most secure to trust yourself in the public.

Okay, she understands the topic we're at right now (:

2008-02-19T14:52:00.000+08:00

MOE : Congrats JAYNE ANG, you are posted to

S'PORE POLY, CHEMICAL PROCESS TECHNOLOGY ( S64 )

under 2008 JAE.

Gosh, better start convincing myself to get a little more interested.
My cousin was in the same exact course as well.

The sad thing, I can't do what I like for the next 3 years.
But it's okay, I will do it in future. Hahaha

2008-02-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

Photos.

Goodnight, working (again) tomorrow, haha.

Suddenly I just want school to start soon, but I'm afraid of getting posted to a course that I'm not very interested in. Ah, sleep first then say.

2008-02-17T21:44:00.005+08:00

Today's one of the worst days ever.

Feeling angry is so tiring, I don't like, I really don't feel, feel so stupid.
I thought I was going to make it a secret to life of keeping my cool kinda thing even when bad incidents do occur, but I was totally challenged today.

My patience lifespan experienced a downfall over the past few months, bah.

This is what being in society is all about, who am I supposed to whine to, myself lor.

But then, I felt so much better after reading a chapter from the book by Torey Hayden.

" I found out they were desprately looking for a specialist in psychologically based language problems. I was not such a specialist, but I was free for a few months. I said if they were interested, I'd be willing to give it my best shot. "

- Torey Hayden.

2008-02-17T02:24:00.001+08:00

Replies to tags :

Elaine & Adriel - ah, haha okay la okay la. I just scared my kid in future will have rashes on his/her ass after wearing your legendary pampers. Better not.

Chen Chao - Hahah, denise and I found something in common which is XIAO JING TENG! Ah, so cool !

Japer - Yes, I guess so ? Lol, I told you already, so don't ask me anything for now.

I just got home from Chingay and I miss the volunteering time I had last year with the people!

That was pretty fun, even though we were there as Contractors.
I just miss the good old times.

Gosh I have work later in the morning, and I just had my Green Tea Frap again at Starbucks.
My craving for green tea frap has been on for so long. I just had it 3 days ago and I craved for it again just now.
I'll be seeing Kailin quite a lot this month, and yay it's officially 10 more days to PAY DAY!
WHOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!

But argh, think carefully, I don't earn a lot each month. Booo.

I think I'm going Bangkok this March. I think it's confirmed. YAYNESS!
Bangkok bangkok wo lai le.

If only it's asked once more
I wish to turn back the pride I stood for
to say what's exactly on my mind
and not something so silly that made me think about it for the whole night

2008-02-16T02:50:00.002+08:00

I was at Chingay with Pris, Jacq, Chen Chao, Kok Wei, Jane, Denise and Priscilla Chiang.
It was pretty amazing how Chen Chao has friends that share the same names as us, who are his friends too, at the same time.

Jane & Jayne, Priscilla Chiang & Priscilla Chong, Denise & Denise.
Oh! And denise chan was at chingay too, so we took a group photo of the six of us and it's in their cam. Haha

Chingay was very fun, I can't wait for the after parade party (:

And! Haha this is so damn funny.
I got rejected, by a policeman who didn't to take photo! HAHAHA

And Jacq went like, " One also cannot ? "

But I think it's pretty weird of me to want to take a picture with him as well huh.

I feel so awake, I feel so....weird that I feel so awake. Okay never mind. Lol

You have no idea how serious this is, you always think I can feel the way you want me to feel, you always think it's that easy.
Give me some more time to think about this, I will give you an answer once I've come to a definite conclusion.
Meanwhile, please don't do anything stupid like dragging anyone into it.

2008-02-15T16:24:00.001+08:00

I never really feel quite right, I don't know why, all I know is something's wrong.
Everytime I look at you, you seem so alive.

Tell me how do you do it, walk me through it. I'm following every footstep.
Baby on your own you take a cautious step, do you wanna give it up ?

But all I want is for you to shine, shine down on me.
Shine on this life that's burning out.

I say a lot of things sometimes that don't come out right, and I act like I don't know why.
I guess a reaction's all I was looking for.

You looked through me, you really knew me
Like no one has ever looked before.

Baby on your own you take a cautious step, do you wanna give it up ?

But all I want is for you to shine.

(:

2008-02-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

This valentine's day and birthday was spent so specially with 12 other friends, thanks for making my day really my big day with the two beautiful cakes, lovely presents and the surprise! (:

I had an awesome birthday, and I love all the presents.

Thank you Mag (:

Thank you Ronald (:

Thank you Jacq (she made it herself! ) (:

Thank you Steffi (:

Thank you Hweishyan (:

Thank you Denise (:

Thank you Jerraldine (:

Thank you Kok wei and Chen Chao ( they got the pooh bear from the machine! So lucky!) (:

Thank you Adriel and Elaine (:
Like seriously, Adriel thanks for the diapers and the octopus leg looking recorders.
DIAPERS ?! thanks ah, I'll save it for my child in future -.-
And I'll say it's legendary diapers from Uncle Adriel.

The present from Vanessa and Pris was the choc fudge cake and geraleine's one was ice cream cake which was handmade! I love it! Yummy! The photos are with the rest (:

After the dinner, we sent Adriel and Elaine off to the taxi stand at amk and I was craving for Green tea frap. So, STARBUCKS! haha

Retarded -.- Hahaha. Malcolm's birthday coming up next !

I'll do the uploading when I get the photos from them! :D
And priscilla! Please drink like 72873938347 glasses of water every day and get well soon!
Chingay tomorrow!

Chingay chingay dragon. Haha remember ?

2008-02-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

I was out with the kbox people at Redhill, Queensway, then to Peninsular, Suntec then Bugis.
Tsk, it was a tiring day.

I saw an Adidas windbreaker which I really like a lot but it cost a freaking $90.70 initially with a freaking discount to $83, which was a pretty good deal but I could imagine my heart cracking into two after I swipe my nets card on that machine which requires only several digits to take money out of your bank.

Just after I make my way out of the shop, Kok wei said he had to go gents and chen chao and him actually paid for that windbreaker while I was in the magic shop waiting for him ?!
Oh my, seriously I don't know what to do. It's so expensive even though they bargain to $80 and splited the cost between themselves. Ah, really thanks a lot!
Goodness.

I'm going very easy on my money now because I've spent a lot recently, and I'm waiting for pay day! After I get pay, I must buy what caught my eye today.
Actually it's only one item which is the Mr Big's cd I saw at HMV, I was so tempted to " just nets it " but ahhhhhh, I told myself I don't own a bank, neither do I own a printing factory printing notes.

I want to start work asap. Only then I will stop looking around for things I like and end up feeling so tempted to purchase but I just XIA BU LIAO SHOU,
in other words, can't do it. Booo.

Lol, I walked so much today, I am going to bed now. Goodnight!

2008-02-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

2nd night/3rd morning of chinese new year was pretty fun with the people (:

We sang at Topone from 11 in the night till 6am, which was followed up by super early breakfast right opposite which is Macdonalds. Haha

I fell asleep immediately when I reached home but had to wake up 2 hours later to meet the girls. And we went visiting at Gera's place, then Hweishyan's place.

With the incident of trespassing the longkang shortcut, it totally made chinese new year memorable. Hahaha

I was supposed to visit Elaine but I didn't because I thought I was too tired. But after dinner with Pris, I was told that the tickets for midnight movie were bought by Willis already. Hahaha

So I joined them for the local ah long movie at Tampines Mall, which didn't appear to be what I've expected, but equally funny as well! Hahaha.

I reached home at 3.05 am and all I had in my mind was oh shit I have work later.

Thank goodness I had a slight stomach ache and headache so I called Boss to ask for leave.

But that would be 30 dollars gone, but tomorrow's more! So it's okay. Lol

So I continue catching up with sleep, which was pretty nice cause I dreamt of something again.

Visiting. (pictures from pris!)

( the longkang experience )

Topone.

AI SEH MAN. This rose was from willis. AI SEH MAN. Not bad, not bad, my birthday's coming so it came in just right in time.
The three women of his life. HAHA

I can only conclude that my eyes really had a hard time because I took off the contacts while I slept for 2 hours, put them back again for more than 10 hours.
Took them out again for less than 1 hour while waiting for Willis to drive here, and put them back again for 7 hours, and watched the movie seated 3 rows from the screen.

2008-02-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

Bah. Just when I'm about to start blogging, I have to stop because Willis is on his way to fetch me now. I feel so comfortable in my seat. I don't feel like moving because I just got home.

Got to go bathe now. Have to catch a movie with them (:

BYE! Update soon!

2008-02-07T02:45:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year this year appears to be a little dull, a few families couldn't turn up and it lacks of the atmosphere we've always enjoyed every year. Haha but the children totally made it lively!

It's 2am in the morning I just returned home from Prata House with them.

Before supper, we caught Kung Fu Dunk and after the movie I was totally going crazy over this team mate in First University called Xiao Lan played by Baron Chen.

He's probably the first actor with shoulder length hair that I considered hot the moment he appeared in the first scene ! Goodness!

This movie is kinda exaggerating but not to the extent that it's unacceptable, it's funny as well!

We witnessed a gang fight and they were using helmet to fight -.-

Tsk, first day of chinese new year leh, fight fight fight, crazy. Nothing better to do.

Willis was also our chauffeur of the night with experience in driving for 2 months already. Haha

Whoo I like his car. Okay, maybe his dad's.

So we had supper at prata house with his four other army guys who talked about Faraday's waves so science-y, future scientists.

Trying hard....

TA DAHHHH !

Elroy!

Now's the daddies' job to do it. Not the mums. HAHAHAHAHA

2008-02-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

MY REUNION DINNER/ LUNAR BIRTHDAY -.-

I met up with Vanessa after her school and shopped at Bugis.
We felt so accomplished at the end of the day because we made a promise to buy at least one item NO MATTER WHAT. Haha, but in the end we bought quite a few :D
Tsk, girls.

I went for reunion dinner at my grandma's place, same practice every year.
I didn't know it's my lunar birthday until I stepped in and everyone started wishing me happy birthday. I only take note of the day on the calendar but old people they tend to look more into the lunar one.
Even so, I always thought the lunar's on December and the actual one's on valentine's day.

Haha wow mum you are great.

It was very generous of grandma to have two cans of abalone for this night.

I always wonder why my reunion dinner every year is so grand with all the nice cutlery and so many pairs of chopsticks oh my goodness so many people and the best is its liveliness!

And the food !

ALL THANKS TO :

AH MAAAAAAAAA !

I love today, going to love tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.

I miss you, a little and a little day by day, and I wonder if you're doing fine right now

2008-02-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

I have this small little calender which I jot down working days and birthdays, now I realised I have to add in a to do list almost every day because I have to run errands.
NO SPACE.

It's very irritating to see ugly handwriting squeezing in the pathetic space of the day. So I bought a journal twice the size of this current calender and I'm trying to be not so lazy so I can fill up the dates and use it as an organizer.
It means I have to draw lines, rows and everything so I can create space for tasks and whatever important stuff. I used to do that to my journals but it often get nowhere.

So............................

I am trying not to be so lazy. Trying.
I will tell you if I succeed (:

hahaha

Okay, I'm done with spring cleaning. Like finally.

I've been delaying the task since last week, when my mum has already done her part of spring clean. So I'm finally done with it today, because tomorrow's the eve already -.-
So my mum won't scream later when she comes back from the night market.
She went there to buy flowers, bosai and a lot more packets of rocks and soil.

I wasn't in a good mood in the morning because of certain things before boss questioned about the missing transaction.
Remember the mystery of the missing transaction ? Yea, that.

So both Liyana and I were scolded by boss, somehow I really feel that it's Jay's problem for being so afraid of the dark and trying to rush the settlements when we girls are not even screaming about the lights being switched off.
I come a conclusion that I can do closing better with Melissa and not boss.
Oh by the way Melissa is another boss who doesn't speak much and I feel that she's a cool woman.
I can really do closing with her peacefully because she doesn't talk at all.

It's been a long day, though I only worked half shift.
Carrying cartons of books really tested my strength and that calvin kept disturbing by attempting to obstruct/poke me while I was carrying them in and out.
I tell you he will scream if I just drop the box down on his feet.

I want to go shopping :(

2008-02-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

I AM PISSED OFF

I've been working shift after shift lately and finally when I thought I could knock off happily today at 6pm as it's my last day of the week, something stupid just had to happen.

It was only when I reached my flat (okay under the void deck actually), I received a call from Liyana about some mistakes they came across while they did end day settlements.
We were discussing and wondering why the heck did the system NOT reflect the transaction at the end of the day, when Liyana actually checked properly and she saw the reflected transaction ON THE SYSTEM when she took over.

It could be my fault but I remembered telling myself to type this and not that when the transaction was being processed!
Maybe my fingers were messed up and they're not connecting well to my brain. If Boss checked and that's really the case, I'm so gonna hate myself.
I could even make such a mistake when I've already reminded myself.
Like seriously, what the hell is wrong with me these days.

And also I tell you the system is so screwed up it's not the first time it's getting us into trouble.
I am pissed off, like really for the first time I'm pissed with a machine.
What the hell is wrong with technology, being so advanced yet not so.

The scanner which got us scolded by customers because it couldn't scan the bar labels properly and it delays their precious time because we have to key in manually.

The Visa machine which got customers fed up because it takes ages to process a chip card and when the customer questioned why and we said don't know, the funny thing is we get it and not the machine. Oh well what am I talking about, what for they scold machine when they have human beings to scold.

And this has got nothing to do with technology.
The books on the shelves that were all properly sort out by us were messed up and being placed all around at the different categories.
Like, you can find a Beethoven book in the drums section.
Or maybe the guitar book in the organ section.
Or better still, you can find books all over on the floor and no one bothers to pick them up and at least place them on the chair.
When boss walked around to check the shelves, we can all predict what she's gonna say,
" Why you all never pack books ? "

And when customers come over to complain, what are we supposed to do ?
Keep quiet and they will say it's bad service, explained ourselves and they'll argue even more.
Say sorry and they will feel that it's no use apologising. Refer them to boss and they will say we are trying to push the blame.

Better still, I had a customer today who wants to know about the piano but usually we refer them to the salesperson. She got so worked up I seriously don't know why.

This was exactly what happened, I was fed up.
" Don't you people know about pianos ? "

" I'm sorry mdm, usually for pianos we'll refer customers to the salesperson because they know it better and we're cashiers so we just collect payment. "

" You got to be kidding me. What is this, like seriously what is this. I'm asking for suggestions for a piano and you're refering me to someone else ? Why are you so scared ? It's not like I've got no money to buy. "

" Sorry mdm I really didn't mean that. But it's usually the salesperson's job to answer your questions on piano. We might tell you the wrong things and it wouldn't be nice if you bought it wrongly. "

" Okay fine then. But I think you guys should go learn as well. Ah, you're wasting my time anyway. Where's the salesperson ? Bring me to him, or her. "

" This way PLEASE. "

So in the end she really bought the piano and I walked away pretended I didn't notice the payment at all. So liyana was the one who collected her money.

Fortunately it's only a small minority of bad customers. Most of them are good. Some even offer you sweets which is really of them. But when we meet the bad ones, it's really the bad ones.

I've got so many things to complain huh -.-
Let's just wait for my update on Monday to see if boss actually scold me for the missing transaction incident.

The mystery of the missing transaction.
Right.

I probably sound so negative here because I'm totally mentally exhausted.

2008-02-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

ALAN !

HAHAHAHA. It's damn stupid.
Anyway, happy seventeen Geraleine :)

I had work today and rushed to Gera's birthday celebration at Paragon immediately after work, guess what I had about 20 missed calls from the girls. Haha.

More celebrations coming up! Oh I just love february so much.

The coughing medicine is making me cough even more.
I want to go sleep now. Or maybe wait for my midnight show again. Or maybe sleep.
I've got work tomorrow again. Goodnight (:

2008-02-01T00:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, work is about tolerating.
And most of the time, all you need is that one person to be there for you to rant things to.

:O

Lol, it's the month of February. A lot of friends were born then in 91/92.

Therefore, Happy Birthday Geraleine ! :)
Happy Sweet Seventeen :D

2008-01-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

Me : Wah books all tagged ? Wa so sian, today nothing to do already.

Liyana : Darling turn around. Your beloved books are here.

Thanks ah. I turned around and the man just pushed in around 12 boxes of stock. So I spent 5 hours doing the stock. I was kept occupied. In fact, very busy (:
My voice is totally gone case right now, I can hardly talk without going out of tune but so suay I had to talk a lot to the customers on the phone today. Stupid cough is in my way.

My desk needs to be cleared right now. All the JAE/poly related booklets are lying around I've got very little space to type. Haha.

I got to sleep early tonight because I've got work early in the morning at bugis area again the next day for the Alfred workshop. The place nearly killed us that day because it was so warm!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACQQQQQQQ :D
HAPPY SWEET 17 !